its been two weeks of my semester break... n what have i done in this two weeks..??? hurm... let me think... eat(obviously).. sleep... watch tv.. helping my mom in the kitchen.... tidy up my room(half of it at least)... hang out with my frens(sometimes)... basically that is all that i did... sgt la shet occay... basically i sleep a lot in this two weeks... occay, specifically in this week... why..?? cos majok ngn abah! huh! bley lak sowh blk tbe2 ea... padahal owg da bli tiket wayang da.. hancur luluh hati nk tgk citer KONGSI ngn tyra... sedey! so, tanda tunjuk protes, tdo lebih 12hours a day ea.. tp pdn muke dr sndr ea... sbb pastu pening.. cos tdo terlalu banyak.. amek kau.. merajuk la sgt kan... huhuhu.. tp skang da ok.. sbb tgk abah cam x sehat.. x best la plak nk majok kan... lgpon tgk wayang tu bile2 bley pg... n i only got one abah and he is da great abah in da world! yeay!i love u abah! even though slalu kene mrh sbb degil, but still, kaklong syg abah! hehehe...
before cuti tu berniat nk keje time cuti... nk cr duit lebeh la kononnye... tp as usual, abah x bagi.. sowh duk umah katenye.. tlg umi buat kueh... mule cam nk protes gak.. tp memandangkan agak susah la nk cr keje part time yg bg byk gaji (mmg xkan ade la kan), so, sy membuat keputusan tuk duk umah n tlg umi buat kueh jek.. lgpon, da nk dkt pose nie, baekla duk umah kan... lgpon umi kate kalo tlg die buat kueh, she will reward me with lots of money! yeay! i love u umi! kaklong akan tlg buat kueh... (dgn harapan dpt iphone 4)... berangan je la lebeh kan... kalo dpt, mmg best la....! kalo x dpt, i redha... ceewwaahh! redha ke..?? huhu... tp yg penting i ikhlas tau! (tagline maksu ku)..
my abah n umi!
iphone 4 idaman!
tp yg pasti skang ni bosan gile... buat kueh bkn lame pon... pg smpi tgh hari.. kalo byk pon, smpi ptg jek... pastu melanguk dpn tv... bosan tol... x tau nk buat pe.. nk kuar pon xde geng... hurm... last2 mkn n duk dpn tv.. x pon ngadap lappy neh... ari2 ngadap lappy ni pon bosan gak... tp seb baekla ade tenet kan.. x la mati kutu sgt... tp on9 ari2 pon bosan... ape nk buat ek... haish.... what ever pon, life must go on... even mkn tdo mkn tdo jek... hehehe...
now, im missing sumone... hurm.. he keeps on appearing in my dreams... i want to call him, but my ego dont let me do it.. well... hes not da only one dat have ego... i also got mine.. n my ego is as tall klcc.. heheeh beside, hes da one that avoiding me.. not me... so, y shud i call him rite..?? or shud i call him..?? no la.. let him be... if he miss me, he'll call.....
'if he's meant for me, he'll come... if hes not meant for me, i'll let him go... and always pray for his happiness...'
this song represent my heart....
but still, no matter what happened, i will always smile...
ok.. everytime im sad, frustrating, i always find a way to make myself happy again.. usually, i'll eat.. sometimes sing (meaning i go to karaoke with my frens), movies, n sometimes just take da car and njust drive... but most of the times, what i did was watch the movies...fairy tales movies!!! i llloooovvvveeeeeee fairy tales.... why? because it really soothing me.... hurmmm.... besides, its full of love,, magic.. beautiful and melodious songs... n dont forget the handsome prince! n da beautiful princess of course.... hikhikhik.. =)) i know most people didnt like fairy tales... they said its just for kids... well, it is for kids,, but its not wrong if adults love it too.. right.. n im sure there are lots of adults that also love fairy tales just like me.. hehehe.. some people dont believe in fairy tales... but some people does.. as for me.. im not sure.. but i always hope that my life would be like one.. hehehe... a handsome prince... that will come.. and take me as his life partner for eternity... one day... n he will only love me... just me... hehehe.. n im pretty sure that they will come... but i just dont know when.. hurmm... hehee...
ok.. lately ive been a little bit sad...ok fine... not that little... agak sedey jugak la kan... ye r... he lied to me! for like what... a zillioonnn times??!! urghh.. forget bout him... just now, i watched ELLA ENCHANTED!! well... its not a new movie.. its basically launched on 2004... i really love that story... well.. its not cartoon obviously... but still, its a story full of magic, with kingdom, prince, giant, elf and fairies! how i love those kind of story.... haaaiiii...... let me tell u guys a bit about ELLA ENCHANTED...
ELLA ENCHANTED is about a girl named Ella, who was given a 'gift' by a fairy, Lucinda. the gift was obedience. it means that Ella must obey anything anyone tells her to do. then, her mother passed away and her father remarries. as always in a fairy tales, her stepmother have two daughters. n basically two awful daughter. so, one of her stepsister found out that Ella will obey to anything anyone says, she starts to play prank her. she always asked her to do ridiculous things. until one day they met the price. the prince, of course a handsome young man, love by every ladies in the whole kingdom, attracted to Ella at the first moment of seeing her. so, the stories goes by with bumping into the ogres, giant, elf, the jealous stepsister.. n the list just go on.. the climax is when the prince uncle ask Ella to kill the prince, n she tried hard to not obey the order, but still, she doesnt has a chance.. so, when the prince brought her to the mirror room and proposed her, she actually try to kill her.. fortunately, she was able to destroy the curse and didnt kill the prince.. but unfortunately, the prince saw the dagger, she was arrested.. then, her friends (elf, ogres, giant) help freeing her from the prison and she was on time before the prince was crown as a king. the crown was poisoned by the uncle. so she tell everything to everyone. n everyone were shocked. n the prince finally believe her. n they get married and live happily ever after..... yeay!
so basically, that's it.. a young girl, a commoner, married a prince because of her beauty(of course), honesty and bravery.. and moral of the things, believe your heart and expect the unexpected... hehehe.. here are the few pictures of the actor and actresses...
Ella
the prince
the stepsisters
lucinda -the fairy
the prince uncle
ella's guardian @ home fairy
ella's stepmother
that are some of the actor n actresses... n i also like the songs that sing by ella in this movies.. the song called 'somebody to love'... nice!
and also the last song.. 'dont go breaking my heart'...
well... what im trying to say is i really like this movie.. and it really made my day! n hopefully, i will be much more better tomorrow...
note to self:
a) stop eating!
b) forget him!
c) cheer up!
hehehe.. that is just note to myself n hopefully i WILL fulfill it.. n as always i will keep on smiling cos smiles can really brighten up my day! so, enjoy the vids and dont forget, keeps smiling! =))
hurm.... this week is a study week... a study week is supposedly for me to study for my exam... but unfortunately, that is not what I'd been doing...hehehe... now, im home.. enjoying myself... heheheeh... but tomorrow im going back to campus... malasnye...!!!!!!! but never mind... cause the exam is less than two weeks n i'll be back home in a blink of the eyes... chheewwwaa.hhhhh... hehehe...
next week is my examination... i have to take like six papers... can u imagine that??! but still, i dont do my revision... hehehe... pemalas kate! that is why im going back early.. need to study... cause, i cant study at home... to much obstacles.... (kononye...) but, im promising myself that im going to study hard cause i need to maintain my CGPA... need to make my parents proud! that is my promise to myself! really hope i can do that.... pray for me k!
another things is about that so-called-human... urrgghhh... i really hate him! why is he keeps on appearing in my life??!! need to forget him! need to forget him!! i cant lie to myself... i love him... i do... so much... but at the same time, i hate him so much... he always make me sad... make me cry... even though i said that i dont wanna forgive him, but still, i will... i WILL forgive him... as usual... i think that is why he keeps on doing the same thing rite... need to always remind myself... forget him... forget him...
now, i need to focus..... focus..... figure something out so i will remain sane n NOT remember him at all... but no matter what happens, im going to keep on smiling! because a smile will always make my day!
a lot of things happen... some people say that those things happen for a reason... but still, i cant figure out what is actually the reasons for what is happening around me.... arrggghhhh!!!!! i really wants to go home... miss my home... miss my family... i really do... i hate here... really hate it... but nothing much i can do... i still have like what..?? 2 more years to go.... im trying to forget him... im trying really hard... but still, i always cannot do that... i always wanted to forget him... wanted to get angry... but, whenever he calls, i just cannot stop myself from not picking up the phone... i always wondering.... does he loves me the way i loves him.... does he miss me the way i miss him... does he actually remember me the way i always remember him.... i always wonder...
he hurt me a lot..... but every time he says that he is sorry, i always let him go... even though i promised myself not to forgive him... but still, i forgave him.... what am i supposed to do..... i really hate myself cause not being able to hate him... i really do not know what to do... m trying to distract myself by doing other things... but still, at the end of the day, i will start to think about him... how is he... have hes taken his meal... what is he doing right now.... am i stupid for always thinking about him.....??
i don't know... i do not know what am i supposed to do... i know that i have to do something about it... but i don't know what to do... really don't know.... pathetic rite... im becoming a loser.... damnn...!!! i hate him so damn much!!!! why is he keeps on appearing in my mind..??!!! my friends told me that he is not worth it... i know that.... but still, i cant let him go.... i am trying hard to think that way... but still, i cant.... i know he's not worth it... i know i can find lots of men better than him... but i don't know why...
i can lie to my friends... i can pretend that i am happy... but i cant lie to my heart... my heart just doesn't want to believe that... my heart has the mind of its own... i cant force my heart... im trying but it just doens't want to let it go...
however, I'll try my best to fake a smile.... i know a fake smile can be seen... but still, if i continue smiling, eventually the fake smile will become true....
