wElcOMe...!

wELcOme to mY bLog...! hope you enjoy reading it with smiles on your face!! =))

Monday, November 28, 2011

my presentation sucks!

serve ME rite! padan muke kt dr sndr kan.. sape sowh x prepare... gile teruk aku buat presentation.. tah pape.. laen yg nk ckp, laen yg kuar.. haishh.. mst markah teruk giler... aduiyyaaaii... xde harapan la nk dpt pointer tggi cmne.. berangan je la jwbnye... tp kan, bkn nye aku x prepare langsung.. tp KURANG prepare... ngeh3... nk sedapkan ati sndr kan... ok.. tu jek nk ckp tuk entry kali ni.. nk siap2 tuk next class pulak... seb baik xde presentation da ari neh....

word of wisdom...
        " Life becomes easier when you stop having to pretend you are someone you are not. "

cam xde kene mengena pon ngn entry neh kan... tp ntah... just feel like sharing it.. hehehe... dats all for now.. n dont forget to keep on smiling!!!

note to self: need to practice on how to present in BETTER way...

regards,
a girl with smiles! =))

Saturday, November 12, 2011

insomnia.... damn!

ok.. almost few weeks tdo lmbt.. n skang da susa nk tdo.... mate ngantuk, tp still xleh tdo.... cmno nk bwat ni ha... haishh.. den da la ponat nih.. *tbe2 kuar loghat nogori lak kan* hehehe.. hurmm.. since aku xleh tdo, mari kt melalut dlm neh... ape nk tulis yek.. rase cm nk menaip je nih.. tp xtau nk ckp pasal pe.. ok.. let me see.. hurm... assignments! yes! mari kt bercakap pasal assignmentS.. diz sem aku amek 7 subjek.. tu include koko la iaitu golf.. ha.. jgn xtau.. aku maen golf skang.. bio x reti pgg kayu pon.. ngeh3... lupe lak.. koko itu ialah kokurikulum.. ke kokorikulum? hurm.. either one la kan.. yg penting aku kene amek subjek koko ni untuk 3 semester utk membolehkan aku graduate dgn jayanya! ha.. last 2 sems aku da amek bola sepak n rakan kaunselor.. hebat kan.. hehehehe.. n dis sem, amek golf.. y? sbb time ni la dpt maen golf dgn free.... ha... kalo maen kt luar, kene byr tau.. mahal lak tu! game tuk org kaye kan... tp seb baek subjek koko ni tiap2 ari sabtu jek... xde la rase malas sgt nk pg kan.. *walau slalunye mmg malas pon* hikhikhik... ok back to 'assignments' td.. aku ade 6 swubjek, x include koko la kan sbb koko xde assignment pon.. setiap subject akan ade 1 individual punye assignment n 1 group punye assignment.. so, basically satu subjek ade 2 assignment... so, 6 darab ngn 2 equals 12.. simple cmni la.. 2+2+2+2+2+2=12.. bayangkan! aku ade 12 assignments! banyak x?!!! banyak kan.. tp tu la life seorg student.. ceewwaahh... cam la aku sorg jek student kan... tp seb baek a few assignments da siap n da submit.. kebanyakan individual punye la.. so skangt ni tggl yg grup punye jek... tp yg grup punye ni pon.. masyaallah.. susah! lebih2 lg bile kene deal ngn ramaiorg neh.. fenin kepale weh..! ye la kan.. laen org, laen pendapatnye... tp bile msg2 xnk mengalah, doh guane..?? ha.. tubik doh ckp ganu aku... huhuhu.. tu la yg aku ngah fenin skang.. assignmnt yg lecturer tu bg tu pon xnk kalah kan.. die ingat universitu aku ni famous sgt kah..? mmg x la kan.. lg nk sowh deal ngn company beso2.. bile x famous, mane la so company tu nk lyn kan.. bo layan je la jwbnye.. tp, xpe, kami akan berusaha utk mndptkn pointer above 3.50 diz semester! yeay! insyallah.... amin.... tbe2 aku cm da ngantuk kan.. mybe sbb mkn ubat selsema td kot.. ok la.. nnt la smbg... lalok suda.. ape2 pon, dont forget to smile people!!

layan lagu neh dulu ea before tdo...

much love,
a girl with smiles! =))

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

its been soooo difficult....

rase cam da lame sangat... tp sebenarnye x sampai pon setahun... in fact, br few months... at first, i was so damn sad... rase cam ditumbuk pastu dipijak n dicincang lumat2.. pastu kene buang lam laut... camtu la perasaan nye... i am trying so hard to forget him.. but most of da time i failed.. in fact da feelings get deeper n deeper each day..  knape aku kene melalui semua tu.. i tot that only happen in movies.. not in real world... but i shud realize that those stories in da movies came from real life.. real experience... as for me that is soooo not good experience... rase cam ade lubang yg sgt besar n dalam dlm hati nie.. each time i'll try to climb out of that hole, i just fell right back into it.. n it sucks... it really really sucks... n i hate that.. dats not supposed to end like that.. i felt so betrayed...n da facts dat i cant tell anyone about it... cause im so damn embarrassed! setiap tempat yg aku pergi, mesti remind me of him... dat is y i hate dat place so much..  but i cant run away.. its not like i dont want to.. its just dat i cant.. i really cant.. sumtimes i always wonder... y do this things happened to me..? am i dat bad n dat diz is da way God chose to punish me..? but i cant do dat.. im not supposed to doubt God.. ni bukan citer hindustan yg bley suke2 nk marah tuhan.. thank God dat i still have my faith in God.. n i will always will.. mybe this is only some reminder for me... always think twice or think a lot before do anything..

people tend to say let bygone be bygone.. i've tried.. n i failed again as usual... people always told me to forgive n forget.. tp still x boleh.. it hurts so much dat i cant even breath! it felt like my heart r going to explode..! sumtimes i just hope dat it explode so dat i cant think about it anymore.. n mybe, just mybe i can be heartless.. so i cant feel anything anymore... when i cant feel, i'll able to think about myself only.. just me.. dont need to be afraid of falling again.. because falling in love is sumthing that i shud be avoiding.. people come n go... but i cant seem to let him go... he probably r enjoying his life to da max rite now.. n i..? stuck in diz stupid memory... its not like im not enjoying my life.. i do enjoy my life.. every minute of it.. but still, theres sumthing missing.. i never care or love anyone da way i love him.. there.. i said it.. i LOVE him! n i still do... dats sad rite.. pathetic i guess... but wat shud i do... hes not mine anymore.. n i hope hes not going to be mine... i tend to believe dat if we're r destined to be together, he'll come back... but now, after all that happen, i really dont want him to my life partner.. as i said, i love him.. but i dont think hes da one for  me...

nevertheless, i tried to accept new people in my life.. but its hard.. cause im afraid.. afraid dat im going to face da same thing all over again.. cause i dont think dat i can handle it again.. n still, im not sure whether i really like him or he just an excuse for me to show to everyone dat im over my ex.. sumtimes.. no.. most of da time, i really wish that we get back together... stupid rite..? i noe... cause like i said before... everything dat i do or everywhere dat i go, it will remind me of him.. it sucks tho...

argghhh..... this started to make me dizzy... i hate it! hate it to the max... i always said to keeps on smiling rite..? but now, even i cant smile.. n i hate him for making me diz way..

"The things that we crave the most are the things that destroy us the quickest."

regards,
a girl with smiles =))